Also, a new phase in relation to Work, in terms of a much looser and more organic approach. Again, less grasping and struggling. A deeper sense of inner acceptance and bodily presence.
Just as I can be with the letting-go and Nothingness, I can be with the bodily presence and breath, without the inner criticism, sense of failure or disappointment. "At this point, you've showed up enough, and contributed real bits, that your absence is felt."
Lastly, I'm coming into a deeper-felt realization/acceptance that my music is for me alone and I have no need to venture out of my own backyard to share it with a world that sees me as an inadequate performer. I do love to perform. But I feel like the Universe says "no" at this point.
And who am, to argue with the Universe? I am come to Nothingness and can rest in that, accept it.