Living Sensing Being
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Wednesday, January 26, 2022
January: Pausing and Giving Thanks
Saturday, January 22, 2022
Organic Work
World of Wisdom January 22, 2022 - Sister Dang Ngheim
Wednesday, September 23, 2020
Saturday Morning
Otherwise, trying to limit the number of outside distractions.
Spike is helping me these days; as is Kayla’s support, in music and generally. Also, Lee and Kev and Will. Psychologically feeling very strong and back today. Took care of a lot of personal business the past two days. Ruminating on book concept(s). Ordered the Katie Pell book from French & Michigan.
Who Am I?
Today I ask “Who Am I”? Am I past thoughts and associations? Am I my concerns for the future?
Eckhart Tolle says, “Remember you are the sky. The clouds are what happens, what comes and goes.”
Spend time being aware in the now, in the moment.
“Who am I? I listen to the resonance of the question. And I begin to hear the resonance of the response, which I perceive through a sensation of life, of a current of life. It shows me that at this moment my essence is touched. My work is not imaginary, not only on the surface. It has penetrated more deeply. I belong to this life whose echo I feel, and wish only to attune myself to it. I listen in myself to the resonance of “I am .” It must become more important than everything else. This is my soul itself that is here.”
~ Jeanne de Salzmann, “The Reality of Being: The Fourth Way of Gurdjieff.”
Wednesday, November 13, 2019
Reality Setting In
Also, a new phase in relation to Work, in terms of a much looser and more organic approach. Again, less grasping and struggling. A deeper sense of inner acceptance and bodily presence.
Just as I can be with the letting-go and Nothingness, I can be with the bodily presence and breath, without the inner criticism, sense of failure or disappointment.
Lastly, I'm coming into a deeper-felt realization/acceptance that my music is for me alone and I have no need to venture out of my own backyard to share it with a world that sees me as inadequate somehow. I do love to perform. But I feel like the Universe says "no" at this point.
And who am, to argue with the Universe? I am come to Nothingness and can rest in that, accepting it.
Friday, November 8, 2019
When I'm Not Crying, I'm Laughing
Friday, December 28, 2018
As 2018 Comes to a Close
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
November Musings Local Coffee at the Pearl
Also, from Ian ~ Frank Sinclair’s Prayer on the Anniversary of Gurdjieff’s death.
Finally from Ian, Jeanne de Salzmann: “I begin to realize that my presence is where my attention is.”
This morning feeling these presences, flowing through me… a continuity of being. From Mister Gurdjieff to Richard, Robert, Ian to de Salzmann, J Foster, Yvonne, Jim Nes, Nishima, Anson, Pierce, Sid… a continuation, continuum of presencing. A direct line of being-transmission. A blessed life. The connectiveness.
A quiteness that can fill the body, even in the coffee shop.
“Listening quitely to ourselves we know that we are, even though we may not know what we are. Perhaps this is the ultimate knowledge” (William Segal)
October Moon
To be at peace one must be at one with circumstances; develop an inner separation, impartiality. Neither “this”, nor “that.” “Develop” is, of course, the wrong word. One cannot grow into it; one must surrender. It is the default position when I drop holding onto “my agenda” and stop being so personal.
Nothing personal.
This is the key. It’s not personal. Nothing is. It’s just life. Good day… bad day. Be a mountain. The mountain does not take it personal. It merely exists in it’s perfection, in just this moment.
Friday, November 18, 2016
Further Adventures...
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Friday Night in the Music Room
Thursday, January 7, 2016
Thursday, November 26, 2015
Thursday, August 20, 2015
Sunday, August 16, 2015
Monday, August 10, 2015
Monday, August 3, 2015
Monday, July 27, 2015
Friday, July 24, 2015
Sunday, July 19, 2015
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Acoustical
Friday, April 17, 2015
Thursday, April 16, 2015
January: Pausing and Giving Thanks
Today I pause for a moment to remember to be grateful, and give thanks for my body, my being, my loved ones. Too often I seem to be so busy ...
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This morning reading Michel de Salzmann and remembering William Segal’s writings. A small point of maturity is touched in me. There is a gro...
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Thinking a lot about life, music, friends... life is a strange riff, after-all. I think I might've found a new re-approach to a "gu...
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Reading “Notes on the Next Attention”, pages 102-103 “Love and compassion can come through me ~ compassion for my (various) parts, too… to b...